That situation largely stemmed from two room service hamburgers ordered at the Macon, Georgia Hilton in and the funeral of my beloved Great-Grandpop, Jim. My Brother had ordered one of the hamburgers.
All the Feelings This summer is barreling toward an end. Last week was one fun thing after another--dinner at a friends house!
Family reunion in Indiana! And this week is supposed to be a shift back into real life, but the transition away from All Fun All The Time has all of us feeling a little out of sorts.
Also, Coco slept until 9am today which Yesterday was the day that I was like, "Well, I think I am ready for some adult time. And for some other adult to get paid not enough money to deal with your behavior.
You know, the grade Eliza would be in I asked them to come over so the kids could play and I could find out a little more about the school and the after school program and the teachers.
I worry about whether her summer birthday will put her behind others in class--emotionally, academically, physically. I worry that the transition from the project-oriented and child-directed approach at Montessori to a traditional academic environment will be difficult or straining or stifling.
And I worry that a man with a gun will come into the school and shoot everybody. Last night I had an anxiety dream that included the girls getting into a car accident on their way home from college, so that tells you something about the speed with which time seems to be passing.
But yesterday afternoon, we started reading. She hangs out in the room with us but plays with toys while we read. The Harry Potter books were the first things I read after Eliza died. Reading is my thing--entertainment, information, refuge, escape, delight.
But after Eliza died, my capacity for concentration was basically nonexistent. So I read Harry Potter--starting with book 4, when it gets dark. I needed life and death. I needed good and evil. I needed magical thinking and a world completely separated from the Muggle hell in which I was living.
You find out later that his mother died trying to save him, and that the pure love of her sacrifice was essentially a magical charm of protection.
It was a tragedy, to be certain, but it was one that made narrative sense. This was the way things worked. No one was writing a story about a wizard baby who died and how his parents had to limp along and figure out how and why to go on living without him.
I wanted to live that magic with her. After years of analyzing and criticizing literature as work in graduate school, to just be a fan of Harry Potter was so relaxing and so much fun.
We drank butter beer and did the rides that made it feel like we were truly in the castle. I enjoyed it so much, but I was also four months into the deepest grief and missing my girl so much that I could have burned Harry Potter World to the ground if it meant I could just be at home hanging out with my baby.
People in the theater giggled nervously and someone made a joke about death eaters and then the power came back on.
Stories of heartache and loss and death and carrying on and finding happiness and finding meaning."Some books are to be tasted, others to be swallowed, and some few to be chewed and digested." - Francis Bacon These are titles on The Well-Educated Mind list by Susan Wise Bauer.
Blue highlighted titles have been read and reviewed by me. This morning we were doing the usual chaotic shuffle out the door, with the girls and me in our relatively small laundry room, putting on coats and shoes and backpacks, both dogs underfoot.
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